Thank you! ❤
FYI, this is an AU where Kaneki is not in love with Touka.
“I’m sorry I wasn’t there.” Kaneki stares at his hands. “When Kuriowa – ”
He chokes up. Urie sits on a cot in the 24th ward. Hide – Hide – is alive and at CCG, if Kaneki will only go to him.
But he’s scared.
“Everyone says they’re sorry, but that doesn’t change that Takeomi doesn’t have a father and I was the only one who could prevent it.” Urie shakes his head.
“You did all you could. From someone who often didn’t.” Kaneki smiles sadly.
“I wasn’t very nice to you, was I?” Urie sighs. “I’d like to apologize for that.”
“You’ve changed a lot.” Kaneki sits beside him. “You’re brave enough to say sorry to your former leader. I’m not even brave enough to apologize to my best friend.”
“That’s preposterous!” Urie huffs. “And exactly like you.”
“We both like avoiding things. Maybe that’s why we didn’t get along?” Kaneki raises an eyebrow.
“Probably.” Urie has to laugh. “You know, I was always jealous. How does a ghoul get all the promotions I wanted? That sort of shit.”
“I was always jealous of the strong ghouls here.” Kaneki swallows. “Touka told me I never needed to change for other people once. I think I should have listened to her, but how can I, when the world requires this of me?”
“The world is unfair.” Urie shrugged. “If you want tons of advice, I’m not your guy. I am, however, your friend, and I would rather Haise Sasaki not change.”
“I’m not Haise. Haise was me minus … trauma, I guess.” Kaneki’s eyes fill with tears.
“Haise was your soul. Whoever you were before shit started. Like me, before my dad died.” Urie swallows the lump in his throat. “Right?”
Kaneki nods. He doesn’t look like a father figure to Urie, not anymore. He looks like his friend, a scared friend.
“Don’t hate me for asking,” Urie begins cautiously. “But may I kiss you?”
“Me?” Kaneki blinks.
“You need to be reminded that even at CCG, people still love you. When you return, I’ll be by your side…in multiple ways. If you’ll have me.” Urie flushes.
“Urie.” Kaneki had never realized before how much he cared for Urie, or why Urie’s rejection hurt so much.
He leans over to kiss Urie.