(If I’m asking too many questions at once, let me know 😓. I swear this is the last one until the others are done) Tsukiyama, Touka, Hinami and the Qs gain a deeper understanding of Kaneki when they all have the same nightmare: Kaneki’s first fight with Arima and his mental walkthrough with his mother and younger selves (from the ending of the first TG, the saddest scene IMHO 😭)

Hahaha you’re free to ask away, but that’s very sweet of you to consider. ❤ ❤ Also this ask might kill my heart. 😉

“KANEKI!!!” Tsukiyama leaps out of bed. It’s 2 am, but he just had a dream that ended with Arima Kishou dragging Kaneki by his hair. Memories of Kaneki’s mother destroying him, treating him in ways that Tsukiyama could never imagine Mirumo treating him.

He races into Kaneki’s room.

Kaneki is already awake as Touka yells. “It was horrible – your mother was hitting you and – Arima was dragging you and -”

“Shuu?” Kaneki frowns.

“Amour! I had the same dream!” Tsukiyama clutches his heart.

“Tsukiyama?” HInami hurries in, Ayato behind her. “Kaneki, are you okay? I had the worst dream.”

“Why are you and Ayato together?” Tsukiyama chortles.

Kaneki begins to shake. “Why are you all dreaming this?”

“Is it true?” Ayato asks dryly. He’s a bit bitter he didn’t have the dream.

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Aura staggers into the hallway of the Chateau. “Arima had me – and some woman was hitting me – it felt like Aunt Kiyoko hit me. It hurt so much.”

Saiko grabs him, sobbing. “It was Maman, Maman’s memory. I know it.”

Mutsuki is crying silently. Sasaki would have understood being hurt by a parent. Sasaki had been safe to confess to. Why hadn’t he?

“I never realized people could be so mean,” Higemaru says sadly.

Hsaio shoots him a you-privileged-brat look.

“Huh?” Urie stumbles out of his room, rubbing his eyes. “Oh.”

“You had the dream, too?” Saiko asks.

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“Hajime’s tracker leads here.” Mutsuki watches his GPS as he leads the Quinx deep underground.

“I’m surprised you can get a transmission,” Saiko says. He heart pounds. Maman, maman was hurt.

“We all must have had the dream for some reason,” muses Higemaru. “Who could have done this?”

“Ever thought it’s a fake?” Aura grumbles.

“Ever thought you should shut up?” Urie responds.

“Who are you?” Two ghouls block the entrance up ahead.

“We’re your king’s children,” Saiko snaps.

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When Mutsuki opens the door, he’s neither surprised nor upset – oddly – to see Kaneki sitting in bed with Kirishima Touka. Especially since Yostume, a blue-haired boy, and the Gourmet Tsukiyama are also huddled around Kaneki.

“Maman! A good maman!” shrieks Saiko, launching herself at Kaneki.

“We all dreamt the same dream about you,” Urie says awkwardly.

Touka points at Mutsuki. “Why is that one here?”

“Because he had the dream, stupid hair,” Aura shoots back.

“Don’t insult Miss Touka! She has high fashion, you high school misfit,” gasps Tsukiyama.

“Are you now our other maman?” Saiko hugs Touka without waiting for a reply.

“Kaneki…” Urie steps forward. “Are the dreams real?”

“I mean, they’re real because you all had them,” the blue-haired ghoul replies snippily.

“Ayato,” chastens Yotsume.

“I guess I mean…did your mother do that to you? And Arima – hurting you like that…have you ever had a good parent figure?” Urie can’t imagine life without his dad. It hurts too much.

Kaneki has tears in his eyes. He meets Mutsuki’s gaze. “I guess we’re alike, right?”

Mutsuki dissolves into tears. “I’m so sorry, Sensei.”

Kaneki holds out his arms, and Mutsuki falls into them. Touka awkwardly strokes the kid’s shoulders.

In a way, Kaneki is relieved. No one judges him. They all love him, and he didn’t have to tell on his mother.

“Kaneki, let us help you,” pleads Urie.

Saiko grins. “Yeah, we’re terrorists now.”

You remember how in re chapter 114 Sasaki Is reading haiku poems in Mutsuki’s memories and Sasaki asks Mutsuki to join him who agrees happily and with an expression of adoration on his face out of love for his sensei. Could you add on to this scene. Perhaps they read haiku together while cuddling and Mutsuki gazes at Sasaki and then Sasaki gets tired and like in Mutsuki’s Sasaki flashback in chapter 141 Mutsuki covers a sleeping Sasaki with blanket before kissing him and saying he loves him

“Do you like these poems?” Sensei asks.

“I do.” Mutsuki smiles. “We should have a poetry writing session. All of us.”

Sasaki laughs. “I bet Urie’s haiku would be something like ‘word word word word word/word word word word word word word/ word word word word word.’”

Mutsuki chokes back his laughter. He leans his head on Sasaki’s shoulder. “That would be lovely.”

“I agree.” Sasaki smiles and turns the page.

Instead of looking at the poems, however, Mutsuki watches Sensei. His eyes droop, and he looks ready to nod off. But he also looks peaceful.

Mutsuki craves that peace. Mutsuki needs to feel safe. Safe, like he feels with Sasaki.

Sasaki doesn’t turn another page. His eyes close, and his breathing deepens.

Mutsuki likes the sound.

But he also knows if he just sits here watching Sensei til morning – because he could, happily – Sensei will wake up cold, with sore muscles.

So Mutsuki gentle lifts Sasaki and drops him on his bed. To his amusement, his Sensei doesn’t even awaken.

Mutsuki covers him with a blanket and props a pillow under his head.

“Hey Sensei. You might not know this,” Mutsuki says quietly, “But I really love you.”

He leaves a kiss on Saaski’s forehead before quietly closing the door behind him.

Shirazu survives with him and Sasaki/Kaneki getting together and Shirazu calling him Sassan.

“I’m glad you’re here, Sassan.” Shirazu smiles down at Kaneki.

“But I’m not Sasaki,” cries Kaneki. Sassan. Why does the nickname still warm his heart?

“I know.” Shirazu rubs his back. “But I’m here for you, the Quinx are all here for you, and we’re going to help you.”

“How?” Kaneki sniffles.

“That cafe. You knew the manager from before, right?” Shirazu hoists Kaneki up. “Lean on me. That’s it. We’ll go there. I’ve got you. I’m not leaving your side.”

Kaneki dares to believe him. What choice does he have?

Shirazu guides Kaneki into the hallway of the Chateau.

Kaneki blinks. All the Quinx await before the front door. Mutsuki, Urie, Saiko, Aura, Hsaio, and Higemaru. “You guys?”

“We’re going to help you,” Mutsuki says, his voice trembling.

“See? We all love you. We’re family.” Shirazu tackles Kaneki in a hug, and all the Quinx pile on.

“Do I have to,” mutters Aura. Higemaru promptly yanks him down onto the hug pile.

“Now.” Saiko straightens. “Let’s go.”

(One more for tonight 😅) After a recent bout of nightmares about his mother (and her abusive behavior, physical and emotional), Kaneki reveals to Akira, Touka and Suzuya (his little brother in this, after they find each other again) that his mother wasn’t who he made her out to be all this time.

“Nightmares, you say?” Akira sips her coffee and waits.

“Every night, he winds up crying. I don’t know what to do.” Touka rubs her belly.

“Intervention time.” Akira points at Touka. “Touka, get Suzuya. Amon, make sure no one disturbs us. I’ll catch our king. That’s an order.”

“Yes ma’am.” Amon salutes her, and she winks at him.

Two hours later

“What’s this about?” Kaneki halts as soon s Akira drags him across the kitchen threshold. She’d said she needed help with cooking, but Suzuya and Touka await instead.

“We’re worried.” Suzuya is sucking on a lollipop that the very-pregnant Touka eyes with envy.

“What?”

“Your wife says you’re having nightmares. As your mother, I’m concerned. Touka needs sleep before the baby, because you can kiss sleep goodbye after.” Akira crosses her arms. “Spill.”

“I – I -” Kaneki flushes. As your mother. “Mother.”

“What about her?” Suzuya is always intrigued to hear more about the woman he can’t remember.

“She …”

“She abandoned you to martyr herself. She taught you the same. I know,” Touka says.

Akira’s eyes sting. She can’t imagine what would have happened if Dad had focused on CCG instead of her.

“Is that what you dream about?” Touka asks quietly.

“No. Her…hitting me. Whenever I did something wrong. She’d say she did it because she loved me and I – I don’t know, she’s dead. I shouldn’t be mad at her, but I am.” Kaneki sinks to his knees and weeps.

“I’m mad at my Dad still.” Touka sits besides Kaneki. “I didn’t know that. I am so sorry.”

Akira gulps. Was she the best mother figure Kaneki had? All the moments of Arima and her re-training him don’t sit well anymore. “Kaneki, that’s terrible.”

“I already knew,” Suzuya says quietly. “I mean, I don’t remember her, but … the way you’re scared of doing wrong, the way you flinch when people try to hug you – you’re like some of the scrappers I knew in the restaurant.” He shuffles closer to his brother. “I still have dreams, good and bad, of Madam. It’s okay.”

“Kaneki, I won’t let anyone hurt you again,” Akira says. “Well, not like that, at least. We are in a war.”

Kaneki smiles. “Thanks, Mom.”

She laughs and ruffles his hair.

Touka wraps her arms around Kaneki. “You’re gonna be a good dad. And I won’t hurt you. I love you. You’re safe here, with us.”

“We’re your family,” sings Suzuya. “We’ll never leave you or abuse you. That’s not what families do.”

He pauses. “Mr. Shinohara told me that.”

“Shinohara was right.” Kaneki draws a shuddery breath and squeezes Touka tight. What if this new feeling floating before him?

It’s acceptance.

Kaneki and Touka are super worried about being parents, with Kaneki fearing that he will be like his mother and Touka fearing she will be like Arata. But when Rin and Ayato come down with the flu, they realize they had absolutely nothing to worry about, and they reminisce together on their days of taking care of their precious baby sibling.

Kaneki swallows. The baby kicks around in Touka’s stomach, and it’s cute, but he can’t be happy.

Because what if he hits him/her?

Because what if he dies soon and leaves him all alone?

Touka sees the angst on Ken’s face and sighs. They’re in a war. What if she should be arrested, and the baby grows up never knowing her? What if the baby hates her, or even feels angry, like she is angry at Arata?

“Ah-choo!” Ayato staggers into GOAT headquarters with flushes cheeks and ashen skin.

“Ayato?”

“She – she got me sick!” He points accusingly at Rin, who follows him in. She, too, is sweating and shaking.

“I didn’t know ghouls could get the flu.” Ayato’s voice rises. “It’s not fair!”

“It might not be fair, but both of you are going to bed. Right now.” Touka grabs for Ayato.

He evades her. “You can’t get the brat sick!”

“Your nephew or niece is not a brat!” Rin yells.

“I’ve got this.” Kaneki takes Rin’s arm and motions for Ayato to follow. “I’ll get Yomo involved if you put up a fight.”

Ayato hangs his head and follows the King.

“Here.” Touka pours a glass of soda for Rin and blood for Ayato. “Take these in for them, Kaneki.”

“Will do.”

When he returns, Kaneki washes his hands immediately. He sighs.

“You know,” says Touka, “I think we’re doing all right.”

“Hmm?”

She laughs. “I’m remembering the days Ayato and I would get sick after Dad fed us human food. I’d be holding back his hair and comforting him. Even then, I knew hurting us wasn’t okay.”

She glances at her husband. “You know? We’ll be okay parents.”

Kaneki swallows. “I abandoned Rin.”

“Yeah, but you’re taking care of her now.”

He smiles tentatively. “True.”

He recalls taking the blame for her mistakes, so Mom would hit him instead of her. Maybe that’s why he turned out worse than Rin. But maybe that’s also why he’ll be a successful parent.

“We’re learning, I guess.” Kaneki strokes Touka’s belly. “Baby GOAT’s gonna be okay.”

“They sure are.” Touka winks.

Saiko, after finding out Sasaki/Kaneki wasn’t actually beheaded on stage in front of the CCG, goes to look for him at re to further calm her fears and make sure he is okay sans Mutsuki and Aura and they reunite

Saiko knows where Maman is. Actually, Urie does too, but he’s too much a coward to come with her, because if he sees Maman he’ll feel bound to arrest him.

Saiko though? She doesn’t feel obligated. She didn’t even choose this life.

But she did choose Maman. He’s her Maman. She loves him, and dammit, she’s gonna find him.

As for Mutsuki, she doesn’t even know. She’s worried about that boy. He needs Sasaki to help him.

“Oh my god, you are terrible at hiding,” Saiko announces as she strolls into Re.

Kaneki Ken drops his coffee.

“Really? Why are you so obtuse? I realize you were just executed, but still. What if next time they actually catch you?!” Saiko puts her hands on her hips.

“I have no idea who this girl is, but I like her,” Nishiki announces.

“You’re one of the Quinx.” The manager approaches. “Why did you come to find him?”

“Because I like seeing him alive!” Saiko shakes her head. “I watched you die and it was horrible.”

Kaneki’s face falls. Saiko cared if he died? The Quinx all cared?

Of course they did.

“Ken.” Touka points to Saiko. “You said the Quinx were your family. Be a dad.”

She flushes at Nishiki’s wink.

“Saiko, I do miss you.”

“So why? Mutsuki’s losing his mind – he’s been sick since Rushima. Urie’s closed off. I have no one and it’s like we meant nothing to you!”

“Because I – I am not Sasaki!” Kaneki squeezes his eyes shut.

“Yes you are, you blockhead!” Saiko growls. “You’re Sasaki and Kaneki Ken. Sasaki is a part of you. Don’t forget him and don’t forget us! Now, apologize.”

Kaneki’s eyes moisten. “I really am sorry.”

“Good.” She opens her arms, and Kaneki falls into them.

Saiko x Kaneki/Sasaki pairing scenario please! With Ken/Haise being affectionate father figure to Saiko and Saiko calling him “Maman”

o.O I haven’t seen much for this pairing. Thanks for sending it in!

“Maman, you haven’t hugged me today.”

“Saiko, I hugged you this morning before work.” Sasaki looks up from his computer with a start.

“That was four hours ago. Long enough to forget.” Saiko puckers her lips. “I’m tired and hungry and I want lunch.”

Sasaki wraps an arm around her. “Satisfied?”

“Nah.” Saiko peers at his computer. “I want to know what you’re working on so much you’d forget lunch with me.”

“I didn’t forget. You’re 15 minutes early.” Sasaki pulls her close and points. “I’m tracking some suspicious activity in our Rc scanners.”

“Interesting.” Saiko yawns. “I’m hungry.”

She pauses. “Wait. Our Rc scanners?”

“Indeed.” Sasaki looks troubled.

Is someone at CCG a ghoul? Part ghoul? Saiko frowns. “This is definitely time for an ice-cream date instead of lunch. Come on. Up. Confess your woes to Saiko.”

Haise allows himself to be pulled out of CCG by this blue-haired breeze.

Alternate scenario where Kaneki/Sasaki never left the CCG therefore not causing pain among the Quinx and Mutsuki is less psychotic and more stable (so he is sans knife crazy) in his romantic feelings for Sasaki/Kaneki and he tells Kaneki/Sasaki about his romantic feelings for him before Touka does. Kaneki accepts Mutsuki’s love because this is the first time someone honestly and genuinely told him they loved him. Mutsuki expresses low self esteem and Sasaki/Kaneki cheers them up

Mutsuki sans knife is much healthier Mucchy.

“H – Haise?” Mutsuki raps on his squad leader’s door. He looks over his shoulder. Saiko nods at him, Higemaru offers two thumbs up, and Urie begrudgingly nods encouragement.

“Mutsuki? What is it?” Sasaki looks up from his book of haikus.

Mutsuki looks at his list of suggestions. All the Quinx wrote out what he ought to say:

Saiko – are you a virgin?

Skipping that one, Mutsuki sees Urie’s.

Hi.

Come on. He growls.

Tell him what he’s done for you – Aura S.

“I just wanted to thank you,” Mutsuki blurts out. “For helping me grow stronger. For caring about me – about all of us. You’re the kindest person I know – and I care about you m-m-more than a little.” He blinks, surprised at the tears in his eyes. “I love you, Sensei.”

“Mucchan.” Sasaki’s eyes practically fall out of his head. “I – I – I don’t know what to say.”

“I’m sorry,” Mutsuki squeaks.

“No, I mean – no one has ever told me they loved me. Not without hitting me, at least.” Sasaki’s eyes cloud over at the foggy memories of his mother.

“I wouldn’t hit you.”

“I know.” Sasaki grabs Mutsuki’s hands. “I care about you a lot too, Mutsuki.” He kisses Mutsuki’s cheek, and Mutsuki lets out a happy gasp.

“You – you mean my past doesn’t bother you?” It hasn’t been long since Mutsuki confessed everything to Sasaki, and Sasaki held him in an embrace.

“No.”

“I’m not grotesque to you?”

“Never. I love you.” Sasaki swallows. “I wish I could take back everything that hurt you.”

“And I would do the same for you.”

“I know you would.” Sasaki pats Mutsuki on the shoulder. “You deserve love, Mutsuki.”

Mutsuki kisses him in response.

Stumbled upon your blog and your writing is fantastic, please keep them coming! It eases my heart reading your posts and distracts me from the events that happened in latest chapter. :’D And if you’re still taking scenerios, may I request something really angsty between :Re Juuzou and Seidou? Enemy otp/rival/etc as odd as that sounds XD

Aw thank you. We all need a distraction after recent events.

“Thought you were gonna be a top investigator, Seidou!” Suzuya Juuzou yells. He has Jason in his hands, Arata over his body. But to strike – to take the blow that even Akira couldn’t take –

“I thought you were gonna be different for Mr. Shinohara, hmm?” Takizawa Seidou grins. “Move on from your experience, stop killing for orders. Kill for justice if necessary. What happened?”

He feels sick. He, of all people, now knows what Suzuya endured at the hands of ghouls.

But his greatest anguish is himself, who used to be a human, and Kanou, who was a human.

How many ghouls have Suzuya as their greatest anguish?

“You’re a ghoul.” Suzuya raises Jason.

“But I was a human. Do you think I chose this? Did you choose to be in the restaurant?” Takizawa throws back his head and laughs. “You just tried to kill your friend Kaneki, right? Are people that disposable to you? Maybe it’s chance that I was taken by Aogiri and Mr. Shinohara was not. What would you do then?”

Suzuya glowers at him. “Don’t you dare.”

No, no – he can’t picture Mr. Shinohara as a ghoul. That could never happen.

“I will dare. I have to. It’s my life, and I’m not done with it yet.” Seidou bares his teeth.

“Shut up!” Suzuya breaks first, to Seidou’s relief.

“Squad Leader,” gasps Hanbee.

“Shut up, you.” Seidou throws himself towards Suzuya, who prepares to swing Jason –

But Amon Koutarou and Mado Akira leap into the fray. In a matter of seconds, Amon’s kakuja has demolished Suzuya Squad.

“Well. Good work, Seidou. Now let’s cuff them and take them to the merciful ghouls.” Akira snaps her fingers. Seidou’s face lights at her praise.

can I get some cute fluffy Furukane? I need something to deal with ch 143

*hands out antidotes to Ch. 143*

“Wait, wait, wait.” Kaneki waves his arms around. “You’re telling me your grand plan was to turn me into a kakuja monster and bring everyone down with you?”

“It hinged on my death, yes.” Furuta sips his coffee.

“Fruit, that’s the stupidest plan ever.” Touka scowls at him from where she’s wiping tables across the cafe.

“No, the saddest.” Tsukiyama winks at him. “I love the drama, though, Souta.”

“But we want you to be alive.” Kaneki touches his shoulder. “I want you alive.”

“I know.” Furuta flushes. He wasn’t counting on Kaneki kidnapping him that moment he confessed his grand upbringing. He wasn’t counting on Kaneki being so decisive, on declaring that the world must know the truth about the Garden. On Kaneki pitying him.

And slowly, as their plans against V took shape, he’d realized he needed Kaneki in his life. He awoke happy to be alive because Kaneki was there.

Kaneki cared.

Kaneki watches Furuta with a smile. Shio runs up to show off his latest moves, Touka curses him for knocking over her cup of coffee, and Furuta actually smiles.

If Furuta can change, if Tsukiyama and Touka and Kaneki himself can change, the world has a change of uniting across species.

He hopes Furuta hasn’t guessed his feelings yet.

Across the table, Furuta hopes the same. He’s already told Kaneki everything he did to Rize. They’re planning to raid Kanou’s lab again and rescue her. He knows she’ll probably hate him – and should – but once they’ve rescued her, once he’s rectified at least one thing he’s done wrong, he plans on kissing Kaneki.