Continuation of Takatsuki Sen’s Black Goats egg from your original answer to my request? I loved it so much!
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“Look,” says his fiancee. Mitsu. Her name is Mitsu, because she’s his bright light. “I know you think you’re going to infect me and kill everyone.”
“Mother won’t let me go,” he mutters.
“But that man you just killed was trying to kill me,” says Mitsu. “There’s a difference between killing for pleasure, like your Mom, or killing to defend someone else.”
“It’s still killing,” he mutters. And the worst part is, he worries the man was right. The man who swung at Mitsu, saying he couldn’t let her forgive the family of the Black Goat, couldn’t let them move on like nothing had happened.
And now he’s just like Mother. A killer.
“You’re overly worried about violence, and with good reason,” says Mitsu. “But you’re not violent unless you have to be. You are not your Mother.”
Maybe she’s right. Maybe his perspective is distorted, because he sees everything as more violent than it is. He can’t even leash a dog without crying.
The police let him go. But he’s haunted by the violence.
“They say you picture blood on your hands when you kill someone. I never have,” he tells Mitsu. “I picture blood in my heart.”
If she’s disturbed, she doesn’t let on. She kisses him instead.
Escape her Room.
He takes Mitsu by her hands. Is she right? Is he so scared of becoming violent, his inaction results in violence?
If he hadn’t killed, Mitsu would be dead. He loves Mitsu. He needs her alive.
“I want to value all life,” he confesses. “But right then, I valued yours above his.”
“That’s not inherently wrong,” Mitsu suggests.
Maybe. He’s not sure.
But she makes him feel happy, and that’s a feeling he’s never known before, even if his happiness shouldn’t be more valuable than another’s.
It’s that night that he decides to escape, to take Mitsu to a fancy hotel and consummate their relationship like she’s wanted for a long time.
As she kisses the sweating skin over his heart, her eyes sparkle. “I see nothing but normal blood here.”
He dares to hope that is true.