If you want a story that touches on this, @hamlietâs âThe (Mis)Adventures of Goatâ is a good one. =)
TW for dysphoria.
âIâm – Iâm pregnant!â Mutsuki clamps his hands over his eyes, as if that will block the reality that stares back at him from the doctorâs notes.
âHuh?â Urie knows Mucchy was sick, but – nah, he misheard.Â
âI canât escape it. Being a woman.â Mutsuki stares into space.
âWait.â Urie stands, but he hesitates. âYouâre really -â
âKuki, help me,â Mutsuki begs as he begins to shake.
Urieâs eyes fill with tears. He strides across the room to take Mutsuki in his arms. âItâs okay, Tooru. Youâre okay.â
âI canât escape – everyoneâs going to insist Iâm a woman again,â Mutsuki says, wiping his eyes. Heâs going to have boobs. A baby is going to grow in his womb. And come out his vagina.
Heâs disgusting. Disgustingly feminine.Â
âNo. I mean, well, some idiots might, but no one who knows you will. Youâre my husband, Tooru. Husband.â Urie loves that word. It fills him with pride every time it rolls off his tongue.
âIâm scared, Kuki.â Mutsuki whimpers.
âMe too.â Urie swallows. It hurts to ask, because heâs always wanted a family, but heâs recently presumed adoption anyways. âDo youâŚwant this?â
Mutsuki stares up at him.
âI know Kimi would help us,â Urie says. Itâs his fault. His fucking fault, tackling Mutsuki and not stopping for a condom that one time – because they were both so into it – Itâs his fault. His mess. Heâs hurting his lover. âIf you wanted to stop this.â
Mutsuki pauses. He doesnât want to carry a baby.Â
ButâŚitâs Kukiâs baby.
And he loves Kuki. And somewhere, he thinks he could wants his baby.
âI donât think so,â he says slowly. âI justâŚcan you start therapy with me?â
Urie beams with pride that Mutsuki is so proactive. âYes. Anything for you, my man.â
They kiss.Â