Some juuzou angst? His S/O telling him she’s always wanted to experience pregnancy/ she wants a baby after he bugged her enough to tell him what’s wrong and his reaction to this since he can’t have kids but he wants to do this for her

WHY WOULD YOU DO THIS TO ME.

JK I LOVE ANGST AND HEARTBREAK.

“Hey, [name], I know something’s wrong.” Suzuya Juuzou settles next to you. You sit on the curb, watching the giraffes in the zoo. One of your favorite places to visit as a couple, but today you went alone.

 You look up and try to smile. “I don’t want to hurt you.”

Suzuya pales. He can barely squeeze out the words. “You want to break up?”

“No!” You grasp his hands. Tears begin to leak out your eyes. “I just…being here…I’ve realized lately I want to have kids. Not just that, but grow a baby from my own body. Experience birth. And…and I know that’s impossible.” 

Suzuya’s mouth falls open. “Oh.”

“It’s not your fault,” you assure him. “I love you, and I’ll never leave you. I’m just…grieving, I suppose. For you, for me.”

“I’m sorry.” Suzuya looks at the ground. His eyes water. He only cries when he’s really emotional. “I’m so sorry.”

“No, please,” you beg. “This is why I didn’t want to tell you – it’s not your fault. It isn’t. I don’t resent you. I cherish you.” 

“We can…adopt,” Suzuya says. Like Mr. Shinohara almost did for him. “But I know it’s not the same.”

He’ll understand if you want to break up. He isn’t whole. And he would never hold you back.

“Juuzou,” you insist, forcing his eyes to face you, “I love you. I want to be with you. I want to marry you. I’m just sad for something that hurt you and me, although to a much lesser extent. And because I know you’re thinking it, I’ve never, ever thought of you as lesser or broken.”

He grabs you and pulls you close to sob into your shoulder. “I’m so sad.”

“So am I. It’s okay. We’ll be okay.” You cry with him.

When you leave the zoo, your hands are entwined.